"Scared of Success"

While sitting at work yesterday and dreading making phone calls to insurance companies I realized, this is not what I want to do with the rest of my life. Yes, I love working in the medical field and I love medical billing, but it's not my passion. For the past couple of years I've been so busy with side jobs that sometimes I find myself taking days off work to get everything done. I always think, if only I had more time to design and create, I know I could do great things.

When I was younger we took family vacations to Door County and I remember a shop called the Pink Mailbox. It was my favorite store, it had all different types of stationary, stickers, stamps etc. Every year I would stop there and stock up. I told myself I would own a store like that someday, it was my dream! While in college everyone thought I was crazy for not wanting to work for a company and do corporate designs. I wanted to make stationary and wedding invites, things of that nature. I wanted the pleasure of being a part of people's special occasions and events. It's an honor to bring their visions to life.

I have the greatest support system a girl could ask for. My family and friends are constantly encouraging me to start my own business. A part of my fear in taking the big leap is that the market is so saturated with beautiful designs, that I honestly didn't believe my work was unique enough. However it must be since people are coming to me to create their wedding, shower and birthday invites. I was discussing my concerns with a girl at work and I told her that I was just scared and nervous and honestly didn't know where to begin. She looked at me and started to say "so you're scared of..." and just when I thought she was going to say failure, she said "success" I paused and looked at her and thought wow, I've never thought of it that way. I've never really been scared of failing because my mentality has always been, I'm capable of learning anything, capable of succeeding and even if I don't, I can't say I didn't try.

A few years ago I trained for the Susan G. Komen 3-Day and completed that goal. Currently I'm training for my first 5K and I have one more day in my 9 week program. In the beginning of that program I thought I was crazy for attempting to be a runner, everyone told me to take it slow and you'll be amazed how far you'll go. I learned while trying to do something physically different your mind is always telling you negative things, "I can't do this, this is too hard, this is impossible." It's when you tune out your brain you realize your body is telling you something different. I'm so proud of myself and I realized if I set little goals and complete them, at the end you've actually completed a big goal!

So I'm finally in a place where I'm saying "it's time!" I'm setting a goal and I'm working for a better future. Wish Sam and I luck as we start a new adventure and get our work known. Thank you to everyone who's supported my dreams and encouraged me along the way! I'll keep everyone updated as things develop!